Saturday, November 2, 2013

Be still, and know that I am God.

"However bewildering this all may be, these afflictions are some of the realities of mortal life, and there should be no more shame in acknowledging them than in acknowledging a battle with high blood pressure or the sudden appearance of a malignant tumor."

When I was sixteen years old, I was diagnosed with MDD or Depression. I have battled with it since.

"So how do you best respond when mental or emotional challenges confront you or those you love? Above all, never lose faith in your Father in Heaven, who loves you more than you can comprehend. As President Monson said to the Relief Society sisters so movingly last Saturday evening: “That love never changes. … It is there for you when you are sad or happy, discouraged or hopeful. God’s love is there for you whether or not you feel you deserve [it]. It is simply always there.” Never, ever doubt that, and never harden your heart."

The last six months on my mission were incredibly difficult, but the best experience of my life. I've been honorably released and sent home to battle my depression. Something that I've learned on my mission is about the ENABLING power of the Atonement. The Atonement doesn't just cover sins or mistakes. Jesus Christ is the only one who knows EXACTLY how I am feeling right now. I testify that our Savior, Jesus Christ knows us all individually. He is the reason I could get up every morning, and the reason I keep going. I know this church is true, with all of my heart. I wish I was still in Washington, but the Lord has different plans in mind for me. I'm ready to serve.

Love, Rachel

1 comment:

  1. Rachel, I just read this and am anxious to welcome you home. We love you and understand how challenging coming home can be. We are anxious to support you any way we can. One of the most painful and rewarding things we did on our mission was working with missionaries with these struggles. We came to a greater realization of how real and challenging they are. While we don't have any magic cures we can offer you a lot of understanding.

    Love, Doug and Erin Holmes